Wholesome and Nutritious

I might not be the best at it, but I'm pretty domestic. I love anything domestic and lovely. I'm always trying to learn new things and try out recipes or ideas. Since April, I've had an itch to learn how to make Whole Wheat Bread. You know, grind the wheat and everything. I even traded in my Kitchen Aid for a Bosch since most bread recipes are too over powering for the Kitchen Aid. It took me almost a year, and Santa brought me one for Christmas...I was so excited. So naturally, my "one track mind" kicked in and I was on a mission to learn and conquer whole wheat bread...so much so that once figured out, I would make a batch each week for my family in hopes to not buy the bread at the grocery. I had come across three different recipes since April and I wanted to try all three to see which one I liked the best. One came from a great lady in my ward, another from a dear friend in KS and another from Utah. Each recipe was a little different and each one asked for something a little out of the ordinary. I took my kids out in the freezing cold and snow to find such ingredients as: saf-instant yeast, vital gluten flour, 9 grain cracked cereal, hard red wheat, flax seed, sunflower seeds, sesame seeds, wheat grinders from friends, 8.5 inch bread pans, etc. I called friends and bugged them like crazy with questions about each and every recipe. Once I had gathered all I needed and more, I settled in on my adventure.
In a matter of four days I had baked 15 loaves of Whole Wheat Bread, trying to perfect and figure out which recipe I liked and that liked me the best. I failed miserably at two of the recipes and did okay with the third, but it still needs a little work.
As each loaf was baked and eventually put in a zip lock, I began wondering if there was more to this bread than just baking it. Was it somehow filling a hole inside of me? All 15 were wholesome and nutritious, was I feeling like I was needing some nurturing, something warm and wonderfully filling?
Regardless, I've made 15 loaves. I've going to stop now and order my own wheat grinder and finally buy some wheat for my food storage and continue trying to make my recipe work...not like a crazy woman, but a little over time.
I guess there could be worse things I could do to fill some of those emotions!?!?